Friends,
HM says Tahab grenade thrower is an informer. And we all know what the state government / J&K Police are claiming. Surely one of them is lying and I wish Almighty gives us the sense to perceive the true picture.
Having said that, does it make any difference to the families who lost their loved ones. This irreparable loss is equally great whether the victim fell to some militant designs or to machinations of the state. They’re no more now and their families have to live with this sorrow for ever. Would they care less if they come to know who the culprit actually worked for? It is a loss of a human life – but strangely in Kashmir such incidents hardly get noticed. I had read it somewhere (I think it was CNN-IBN blog of Suhasini Haider (corrected read as) Mufti Islah Read it here .. do have a look) that Kashmiris need a hell of a weeping and that day I really felt how innure and insensitive we all have become. Deaths dont scare us at all, Grenade attacks are normal part of our vocab. And to me that is the biggest tragedy of all.
I would like to share a personal experience here. That experience of mine simply confirmed what I had thought long time ago – We hardly realise what deaths mean these days. Some time back I lost my dearest friend to a rare disease… His death was a huge setback for his family and for every friend of his. But I did feel that within days I was carrying on with my life the way I had done before. My grief was not less in any manner – even I miss him now though its been months, My feeling was that either the realisation that he is no more had not sunken yet or I don’t know what death (My friend used to call death as “The Universal Truth”) is – oblivious to the fact that I am not going to see him again till the Day of Judgement. I still feel it is the latter at least when it comes to Kashmir and Kashmiris (living in the valley).
At the same time I also believe that we ourselves are responsible for this. For behaving like no better than a person who is almost dead. When I think of innocent killings – I recall Gow Kadal, Bijbehara and countless other such incidents. But at the same time I cannot forget that day when a Pandit doctor’s entire family was wiped out in Aali Kadal. By whom, yes by people who had promised Kashmiris Azaadi (or some may say Pakistan). Just by killing 5 innocent they thought they were closer to their aim. May Almighty do unto them what they deserve.
I felt so sad that day and even today I wish I could ask those murderers Why, what was their crime. We should have questioned them then … We didn’t… No one was shaken by that and so now even massacres don’t move us.
Keep your thoughts coming on this…
Juz A Kashmiri
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Nice post. That’s what I was trying to point out, maybe in a harsh tone. Maybe the tone seemed harsh cause a Kp was asking the questions that you are supposed to ask. Anyways it was nice having this conversation.
Thanks Vinayak,
Thanks for your kind words. I am sure by now you would have realized that not all Kashmiris are jingoistic. It is also possible that some from my own community may not agree with my thoughts as some of the Pandits do not. But the idea (as I often say) is to create a common understanding where we acknowledge that we both have suffered – some more some less – some in one respect and some in another way -due to the strife whose end unfortunately is not in sight.
I am just hoping that the compliments are not because I tried to put myself in the shoes of the victims who happened to be Pandits. The grief and the pain on both sides is overwhelming but I have a hope some day we will go back together and celebrate the onset of spring at Badaam-waari.
Juz A Kashmiri
Ameen.